eye INSIST on MY team....
the gray team.... is there a gray team.... if there is.... then... eye do NOT know what color to be....
but....
if there is not.... eye want to be the gray team.... the middle color.... the color that is dead.... the color that is in the middle.... of.... black and white....
so.... remember....
my songs know what you did in the dark....
and...
my songs know who should be on my team....
now....
these are ONLY guesses.... after all.... that is really all eye am doing here....
playing a guessing game....
the chapters contained in this section.... are MY best guesses.... of who eye WANT on my team....
also.... eye WANT to look back.... eye am GONNA look back.... eye am gonna REQUEST that certain people return from my past....
do NOT come.... do NOT join me....
UNLESS....
you agree to MY plan....
you are willing to help me die.... you are willing to set me free....
you are NOT made of greed....
you are willing to let me be.... quarterback AND coach AND owner....
and....
most importantly.... do NOT come.... UNLESS.... you are WILLING to.... speak to me....
eye NEED my demons....
today is.... may twentyfirst....
when you felt my heat.... you should have looked into my eyes.... that is where my.... demons.... hide.... that is where my.... demons.... hide....
you should have looked in my eyes.... when you felt my heat....
today.... she wants my demons to join the fight....
only fight the people in my body.... not the people in the room....
eye NEED a hard headed woman....
today is.... may twentyfourth....
today.... she.... says.... eye need my.... hard headed woman....
eye NEED my house of cards....
today is.... march seventh....
today.... eye need the moon to forget about her..... house of cards.... eye WILL do mine....
eye NEED jealousy....
today is.... may twentyeighth....
today.... SHE.... says.... hey jealousy.... will you come and find me....
if eye have TAMED you.... eye want you to join the fight today....
were you REALLY the BEST eye have ever had....
will you come.... so eye can drive us around this town.... one day.... and.... we can let the cops chase us around....
eye do NOT know why eye would say.... you can trust me not to sleep around.... maybe.... because....
turning japanese.... tells me.... no sex no fun no sin no you know wonder.... it is dark....
OR....
just another day.... tells me.... eye will not fall in love.... because.... eye cannot risk some bet....
because....
eye am going to go to the.... otherside.... and.... eye am a TOTAL slut.... she wants to know.... am eye still a slut.... god damn right eye am....
and....
she is.... buzzin.... and.... eye go from town to town.... and.... eye pray on sluts....
will you come find me.... if eye liked you this much.... here is where eye will be.... where is waldo going today....
did you come and find me.... jealousy.... are you NOT the woman eye remember..... did you get on my wall.... without my permission.... instead of joining the team....
if so.... they want me.... breaking the girl.... it is time for me to sever our ties.... eye told you.... paris is going to be on my wall..... NOT YOU.... you are only invited to come along....
are you picking me up.... eye NEVER gave you the wheel....
actually.... kick jealousy out entirely.... she has gone to the otherside.... she is no longer working for good in the world.... kick her out entirely... picking me up.... god damn fucking bitch.... picking me up.... you fucking cunt....
eye NEED to thank the free birds....
today is.... march seventh....
have some of the.... free birds.... joined me....
eye need to thank all of the free birds that have joined me....
eye need to thank all of the volunteers.... how many of you are there.... what can you do....
the teams are in charge of everything.... right.... so.... what are you doing for me....
eye would LOVE to show my appreciation.... but.... eye just have no fucking clue what you are doing for me....
but.... if there are free birds with me.... if you are helping me.... and.... eye just cannot see HOW you are helping me....
eye just want you to know.... eye appreciate it.... eye just want you to know.... eye.... thank you....
you see.... eye do NOT know when eye am right.... no one tells me when eye am right.... they ONLY tell me when eye am wrong.... and.... they even make me THINK eye am wrong.... when eye am right....
you see.... eye have NO way of knowing what you are doing for me.... and.... eye have NO way of differentiating what you are doing and what the EVIL shits are doing....
you see.... when winter spritzer gives me a big smile.... eye have NO clue.... is she happy FOR me.... OR.... is she happy eye am failing.... eye WANT to think she is on my side.... but.... people have PRETENDED to be on my side.... over and over and over.... until eye am volnurable.... then.... they hit me.... they hit me hard.... is she really behind me.... or.... is she just sucking me in.... for the kill....
and....
you see.... eye have NO fucking clue.... do you all think eye am a major creeper.... or.... not.... MOST.... people would say.... a sixty two year old man attracted to twenty somethings.... IS.... a creeper.... so.... do you all think eye am a creeper....
please do not get mad at me.... when eye lump all of you together.... that happens when eye get angry.... it is a.... symptom of being human....