should EYE stay or go....

come on people....  should eye stay or should eye go....  come on good people....  orange you gonna speak up....

IF....

there is anyone out there that wants me to stay....  you SHOULD speak up....

they say....  that a child needs to hear ten good things for every bad thing you tell them....

now....  eye am NOT expecting to receive ten complements for every bad statement....

however....  it SEEMS to me like eye am getting hit with ten bad for every good thing that someone says to me....

in the last week....  eye have had....

one barista....  tell me that eye am the enemy invading on her teritory....

three baristas....  walk away....  or....  start talking to someone else....  while eye am in the middle of saying something to them....

eye have had....  one barista tell me....  that she would like it if eye went to another coffee shop....

eye had one lady give me a nasty wave goodbye today....

a woman who claims to be my friend....  is getting married to the guy who stole her world....  she is getting totally set up by him....  

AND....

she is HELPING him try to put me in jail or the mental hospital....  she hit me hard.yesterday....

she is SO fucking good at the liars game....  at the....  do not give brian a chance to share his story game....  at making me look like a monster....  

and....  yet....

she is so fucking HORRIBLE at playing MY way....  with the truith....  reading signs.... 

the signs are SO fucking obvious to me....  that she is being surrounded by VERY bad people....  that the worst fucking soul from her world....  is sticking his dick in her every fucking night....  that he is SETTING her up to fail....  locking her into fucking contracts....  OH MY GOD....  telling her every fucking thing that she wants to hear....   she is SO easily manipulated that way....  tell her she is amazing....  and....  you have her wrapped around your little finger....  they did their research....  they know exactly HOW to work her....  

and....  eye try to warn her....  but....  my shadows have made me look like her brother....  who she fucking hates....  so....  she does not listen to a fucking word eye tell her....  eye am trying to hellp her....  while she is trying to put me in jail or the mental hospital....  eye am trying to break her chains....  while she is trying to put me in chains....

you all act like....  it does not matter....  if we are together....  but....  NOBODY WANTS TO SEE US TOGETHER....  the bad people are surrounding her....  whispering all kinds of reasons for her to hate me....  making me look like the borther she hates....  offering her millions of dollars to try to set me up....  

they want to keep me away from her....  because....  she has the map to the underworld....  because....  she has the black list....  

and....  the same with....  paris....  they will not let me in her world....  so eye can let her onto my wall....

and....  casanova....  told me....  eye got you....  and....  baby tyson told me....  eye got you....  so many fucking people are out to get me....

where are the good....  where do the good go....  why do the good NOT speak up....

marsapan has told me she wants me to stay....  sierra madre has told me....  gave me some confidence....  telling me....  eye am sure whatever you decide....  brian.... will be the right decision....  but....  eye need to hold my ground with her....  eye cannot let her back on board....  not after she called the cops on me....  there MUST be consequences....  she can STILL redeem herself....  without being a part of my team....

and....

fucking jsickle realed me in....  with that whole eye gotta be the only one stick....  and....  they....  she fucking acted like a fucking power hungry cunt....  when she snapped at me....  out of the fucking blue....  and....  told me....  when eye said....  JOKING....  because we HAD been joking....  when eye said....  eye am trying to chase the other jsickle away.... her reply....  in a very serious condescending contorlling eye am better than thou voice....  if you say ANYTHING weird to me....  eye am going to call the cops.....  how about this cunt....  is this weird....  or....  is this just a straight up....  fuck you bitch....  FUCK OFF WHORE....  slutty little whore....

so....  do you get my point....  all of you good people out there....  eye am taking far TOO many hits....  with....  minimal POSITIVE reinforcement....  there NEEDS to be some fucking balance here....