another battle....

it looks like eye had another battle today....  against the black cloud....  against one of zeuses soldiers....

let me guess....  eye am supposed to convince angels to choose me....  when....  eye can only use my book....  eye can only use my lyrics....  to try to convince them to choose me....  zeuses soldiers get to talk to them....  get to become their friend....  and....  eye....  have to let someone else control my lyrics....  to tell these angels pretty lies....  that eye love them....  that eye need them.....  that eye want to marry them....  when....  eye do NOT even know them....

eye am starting to take control of my lyrics....  telling these people....  what eye think that they need to hear....  telling them....  that zeus is a monster....

and....  then....  zeuses soldier....  who actually gets to talk to the angel....  tells them pretty lies....  oh no....  zeus is not like that at all....  he is beautiful....  how could he be a monster....  believe me....  you have nothing to fear....

so....  today....  eye think eye picked up one angel....  but....  eye missed another....  and....  eye think that eye needed to get them all....  but....  one of them....  told me....  eye should do this for fun a for free....  eye told her no fucking way am eye doing this for free....  this is NOT fun....  and....  then....  she told....  she does NOT want to be my girl no more....  so....  eye told her that eye was wasting my time here....  and.... eye left....

and....  then....  the songs on the radio told me....  eye have another unwanted guest in my head....  and....  eye am going to need a needle and thread to get someone out of my head....  can eye get another needle and thread today....  watch the chapter titled needle and thread....  to see where eye will be going today....

oh....  and....  maybe we should slow down the rain....  so eye can PROVE to all of you....  and myself....  what eye can do....  how eye can heal....  who eye am....  because....  eye am NOT like every politician out there....  eye do NOT want to say to you....  trust me....  eye do NOT want to be like your god....  just believe me....  believe in me....  you have seen no proof....  but believe....  eye do NOT want to be that guy....

so....  tell me....  how can eye slow it down....  so....  eye can prove to myself and others....  that the lyrics are true....  that eye CAN heal myself....  in ways no one else has....  that....  eye was an architect of life....  and....  we made the humans better....  better than the immortals....  in every way....  for example....  you WANT to feel....  am eye right....  but....  you do NOT want to lose your wings....  you do NOT want to lose your soooper powers....  AND....  you want to feel....  well....  maybe....  we gave you the best of both worlds....  be gave you the ability to feel....  AND....  you still have soooper powers....  like flying....  you might not be able to disappear....  and move around from place to place in an instant....  like amenadeal does in the show lucifer....  but....  maybe we have given you other ways to move around quickly....  like....  worm holes....  within worlds....  instead of between worlds....  hmmmm....  sound like a fair trade off....  maybe....  right....

maybe....  we should slow things down....  as a strategy....  so that....  when eye prove to both you and me....  that much of what eye am saying is real....  well....  that will be my strategy....  to win all future battles....  right ender....  that was your strategy....  and....  that will be mine....  eye will not keep beating up the bully....  like you did....  eye will use PROOF as my weapon of choice....

so....  how do eye slow it down....  so that eye can prove to all of us....  that what eye am saying is true....  AND....  stay safe....  keep from getting hit with toxic mold....  eye cannot prove anything to you....  if eye keep getting hit with toxic mold....  if the devil at hard wood floor poisons my groceries....  every time eye get hit....  eye only step backwards a bit....  meaning....  this process....  is going to take longer....

whoever is guiding me....  is telling me to run in the race....  do NOT slow down....  she is telling me....  if eye see a chance....  eye should take it....  but....  how do eye know....  eye am not just working for another team....  again....  eye should slow it down....  until eye KNOW that eye am FREE....  finally....

look....  the way eye see....  nobody else can do what eye have done....  nobody can catch me....  eye am falling....  and....  nothing can hurt me....  like....  it can hurt all of the other teams....  has anyone esle separated their mortal soul from their immortal soul....  CAN.... anyone else do this....  CAN....  anyone else catch me....  can ANYONE fall any further....  it is NOT whether you win or lose....  it is how you play the game....  once again....  eye will draw from ender....   it is not IF you win that matters....  it is HOW you win that matters....  if....  as in enders game....  an entire race must die....  for the rest of us to live....  well....  that is NOT winning....  right....  ender....