health and falling....

wait a minute.... 

is my health somehow tied to how fast eye fall....  the faster eye heal....  the faster eye fall....  is that how this works....  well....  who came up with that....  that is messed up.... 

and....

are there angels attached to me somehow....  are they falling with me....  

what am eye supposed to do....  the only way to heal myself....  is to do it fast....  if eye kill some mold....  and....  then wait a week to kill some more....  it will only grow back....  and....  eye will have the same amount of mold to deal with....

so....  how do eye stop falling so fast....  AND....  fix my health....

eye thought that falling had to do with you guys making it rain....  are you guys making it rain hard....  

look....  angels....  if someone is holding on to you....  it is zeuses father....  NOT....  me....  eye am NOT driving this bus....  he holds on to angels....  not me....  he holds on to HOPE....  not me....  he IS the monster....  not me....

eye think you need to make it rain....  in order to get him off of me....  will that make me fall faster though....  and....  eye think....  the only one who can stop the rain....  is zeus....  he needs to come and STOP the rain....  he is the ONLY one who can stop the rain....  

as you can tell....  eye am NOT driving this bus....  eye told them to slow it down....  unless....  again....  my healing....  has to do with how fast eye fall....  if that is the case....  then....  eye am at a loss....  because....  eye need to heal....  and....  the faster....  the better....

what if eye tell zeuses father to let you go....  let all of you angels go....  what will happen then....  eye WANT to choke on the noose around my neck....  so....  let go of hope....  let go of the angels....  

so....  eye can focus on my health....  and....  eye can fall....  my immortal spirit can fall....  without taking any angels with me....  

this is not supposed to be about scaring the angels....  this is supposed to be about one of two things....  either zeus comes....  or....  his murder machine gets destroyed....  and....  eye finally die....  eye am finally free....

eye THINK....  if you make it rain....  you will drown zeuses father off of me....  and....  then....  you will be free....  HE....  will no longer be able to hold you angels hostages....

look....  eye told them to slow down....  eye told them to leave the world on another shelf....  now....  eye told them to let the angels go....  and....  zeuses father can let go at any time....

so....  it SHOULD just be me falling to my death....  my IMMORTAL spirit falling to its death....  along with....  the death machine....  so....  if zeus wants to save his death machine....  he needs to come and stop the rain....  he KNOWS....  that this machine is IRREPLACEABLE....  he KNOWS that eye built it....  and....  no one can replicate it....  so....  if he wants it....  if he wants to continue his messed up fucking plan....  of....  universe domination....  ALL....  all black worlds....  that....  he....  and only he....  will have to come....  and stop the rain....  he....  will have to come....  and face me....  HIS MAKER....  but....  eye do NOT want to talk to him....  eye cannot understand the fuck....

eye just saw an ugly ass niger laughing at the angels above me....  making fun of them....  screaming....  not me.... 

so....  apparently....  zeuses father will not let go of them....  the little fuck....  fuck you zeuses father....  you ARE a fucking monster....

is this what they meant....  what will you do in a NO WIN situation....  what will eye do....  what will eye do....   

he is NOT going to let me take my life....  without taking a bunch of angels with me....  hmmmmm....  what will eye do....  

is....  the no win situation....  my life....  my human life....  or....  their immortal life....  that must include zeuses fathers life....  becuase....  he has to stay on board....  in order to take the angels down with him....  right....  so....  is this a game of chicken....  will he go down with the ship....  in order to take the angels down....  is he good at this game....  is this like the tractor scene in footlose....  except....  he is the ONLY one who can let go....  the angels cannot let go....  if they are afraid....

so....  if eye crash....  the machine is busted....  he can never use it again....  that is a good thing....  but....  they angels will die....  that....  of course....  is a bad thing....  if....  the angels die....  they will be reborn....  as new angels....  mitigating circumstance....   right....  

so....  is this the train wreck problem....  do you sacrifice the few....  knowing that they WILL come back....  for the sake of the many....  for the sake of EVERYONE....  except the serious minority that support zeus....  except the serious minority that he has bribed....  the ONLY ones who will be happy....  if he takes over the universe....  if he enslaves everyone....  if....  everyone....  lives in fear for all eternity....    except the humans of course....  because....  he is going to exterminate them....

can we slow it down....  while eye TRY to figure things out....  is me improving my health the factor that is speeding things up....  so....  if eye slow down....  eye die....  and....  only eye die....  the human....  dies....  but....  if you are all a part of my body....  if all of your worlds are a part of my human body....  then....  everyone dies....  it is the end of everything....  if my human body dies....

eye TOLD you eye would let them go....  the angels....  eye told you eye would let them go....  now....  will you give me love....