shock factor....

so....  eye made the statement....  that seeing a lot of blacks is NOT going to bug me....  like seeing FAKE faggots and dykes really bugs me....  because....  eye KNOW that the faggots and dykes of the NOT so gentle race are shoving many of them in front of my face....  and....  making them the most obnoxious that they can be....  just to bug me....  but....  eye will not mind if eye see a lot of blacks....

however....  right now....  they are using the shock factor....  to catch me out of my element....  to catch me off guard....  first of all....  eye have to wonder....  when eye see a black person....  are they one of zeuses soldiers....  are they going to hit me....  like the guy that hit me yesterday did....  he took his shoes off....  so he could touch the floor....  and....  hit me with a jolt of something nasty....  eye have no fucking clue what it is....  but....  like they did in the mental hospital....  they hit me with something nasty....  to try to force me to leave places....  to try to force me to go home.... 

so....  in the last two days....  they had two SHOCK me....  one....  came up from behind.... to take my order....  and....  yes....  eye flinched....  and....  then today....  one had her back turned toward me....  and....  eye was evaluating....  is she going to hurt me....  is she....  friend....  or....  foe....  so....  with her back turned toward me....  eye had an inquisitive look on my face....  maybe even an angry look on my face....  first of all....  she is fat....  and....  eye think that many of zeuses soldiers are fat and lazy....  because....  he encourages it....  other soldiers....  are muscular....  eye THINK that eye have noticed a pattern....  fat and lazy....  or....  muscular....  eye think eye am starting to figure out how to identify his soldiers....  and....  she was fat....  so....  eye approached with caution....  and....  probably had a nasty look on my face....  and....  then....  as eye got close to her....  she turned around to look at me....  quickly....  suddenly....  so....  eye had no time to adjust my face....  it is kinda like....  when someone is deformed....  if you see them from a distance....  it is EASIER to remove the strange look....  it is easier to put on a happy face....  you have got to realize....  up to this point....  MOST of my interactions with black peoople....  have NOT been good....  eye was attacked by two....  during covid....  and....  then....  in the mental hospital....  they attacked me....  and....  hit me with something nasty....  so....  ya....  they are going to win the shock factor battle....  but....  is that really fair....

ask the young black dude in the mental hospital....  that....  tried to get me to come home....  to come in his room....  where there was a portal to zeuses world....  he tried to get me to go in....  after they hit me with electricity....  and....  eye did not....  but....  later....  we became friends....  eye think eye even told him that my friends were going to protect him....  so....  even when they hit me....  eye THINK that eye can warm up to them after....  even though they tried to hurt me.....