tired of the bullshit....

are you getting tired of MY accusations....  are you getting tired of MY bullshit....

how the fuck do you think eye feel....  eye am getting tired....  of your addiction to this wicked ass game....  of your creating unnecessary drama....  of your lies....  of your willingness to let psychopaths and murderers and slave owners run free in your world....  of having NO life....  of WASTING this life....  eye am tired of YOUR bullshit....  eye am tired of the fact....  that not ONE of you will come out of the darkness....

eye am tired of you EXPECTING me to be ABSOLUTELY perfect....  when ALL of you are SO fucked up....

what....  eye ADMIRE beauty when eye see it....  shame shame shame you say....  well....  FUCK YOU....  and your shame....  

the solution is NOT for me to stop admiring beautiful women....  the SOLUTION is to have MORE beautiful women....  eye stared....  because....  she was one in a million....  eye would stare less....  if she was one in a thousand....  and....  even less....  if she was one in a hundred....  and....  even less....  if she was one in ten....  MAYBE....  not at all....  if she was one in two....  or....  one in one....  why....  can you NOT think outside of the box....  why do you want me to CONTROL my natural desires....  why do you want me to CONTROL my animal instincts....   if you immasculate me....  if you TAKE away my desire....  eye am NO longer a man....  a man is NOT a man....  unless he has desire....  is that what you want....  do you want me to become an....  IT....  a....  NOTHING....  no emotion....  no desire....  no sex....  no fun....  no wine....  no women....  no you know wonder....  well now its dark....  inside....  take away all that is me....  and....  all you are left with.... is darkness....  why exist....  oh no....  mr bill....  oh no....  help me....  mommy....  eye am....  turning japanese....  help me mommy....  they are turning me into one of them....  help me mommy....  they WANT me dead inside....  like them....  they WANT me to be dead inside....  the want me to be LIKE them....  help me mommy....  save me mommy....  do NOT take away MY desire....  you took lucifers heart....  and....  you threw it in the trash....  please....  do NOT take away my desire....  eye have NO heart....  it is all that eye have....  to keep me alive....