are my SHADOWS searching....

do not stop believing.... brian....  one day....  they will find her....  one day....  hopefully soon....  they will reunite you....  with that small town girl....  you were always hoping to find....

where is she....  where the fuck is she....  are the shadows searching in the night....  are they looking for me....  or....  are they fucking with me....  like the angels are fucking with me....

just let her know....  eye AM asleep....  just let her know....  eye am NOT just the city boy....  

just let her know....  not to be dissappointed....  if eye do not do what she expects me to do....  

eye want her by my side....  eye do NOT want her on my wall....  that position is reserved....  for....  girl in the corner....  and....  paris....  

but....  eye STILL want my small town girl....  by my side....  whoever she is....  tell her....  do not be dissappointed....  if....  eye do not recognize her....

tell her....  if she....  faithfully....  believes....  in miracles....  we will get the joy of rediscovering each other....  and....  two strangers will get to learn to fall in love again....  because....  eye am forever hers....  faithfully....  

also....  let her know....  eye am not the music man anymore....  let her know....  eye cannot....  sing....  anymore....  let her know....  eye am not the singer that she wanted....  but....  a dancer....  this time....

and....  ask her....  now that eye....  got you where eye want you....  did you know that eye can dance....  

let her know....  eye am going to....  keep you right....  even though eye have lost my love....  song and sight....

eye know what you are thinking....  at this point....  you are saying....  what an asshole you are brian....  taking all of these great roles in each of the worlds that you lived in....  but....  you NEED to ask yourselves.....  where these all great roles....  was being a quarterback in all of these worlds....  such a great thing....  was....  being locked away in a box....  a great thing....  was....  being given a small pee pee and only having sex once a year....  and....  having your memory erased and all of your ideas stolen....  such a great thing....  was having your mother give you cancer....  and....  refuse to give you the treatment....  unless you did her bidding....  such a great thing....  and....  having her REFUSE to put air conditioning in your car....  a great thing....  and....  being given mold....  to force you to do hot for teachers bidding....  and....  was being the quarterback for the...  cat people....  such a great thing....   you would NOT believe what eye have been through....   and....  was being sysiphus such a great thing....  you have all seen what zeus does to me....  to try to FORCE me to come home....  and....  and.....  and....  on and on and on....  was being the quarterback....  really such a great thing....  eye played all of these roles....  so that NO one else would suffer....  as eye have suffered....  eye played all of these roles....  so that one day....  you would all come looking for your quarterbacks....  and....  you would all see me as YOUR quarterback....  so you would all try to control me....  so....  eye could take ALL of your angels and shadows....  so....  eye could set EVERYONE free....  if you can believe it....  it was the ONLY way....  it was the only way....  for me to attach ALL of the worlds to this world....  so eye could put an end to ALL the suffering....  so eye could set you ALL free....  it was the only way....

now....  that eye have gone through ALL of this suffering for you....  is it ok....  if....  at some point....  eye actually get to enjoy my life....  is that ok with everybody....  is it????

there are some people....  whose place eye could not take....  like....  zula....  eye wrote a....  song for zula....  because....  eye could NOT stop the pain and suffering that fake love put him through....