give HER credit....

she says....  she WANTS me to give her credit....

WHO....  who am eye supposed to give credit....

the moon....  who will NOT speak to me....  the moon....  who gave me false hope....  

the sun....  who would BURN me alive....  if she had the chance....

the shadows....  who keep taking away my armor....  to try to control me....

the angels....  who keep decieving me in EVERY way possible....  the angels....  who keep trying to take me out....  for their big pay day....

the current shadow....  let us call her mountain shadow....  who keeps playing games with me....  coming into my life....  and....  then....  leaving me in the dark....  hoping....  eye will make a mistake....

the angels or shadows or whoever....  who keep putting fucking dykes and faggots.... IN MY FACE....  over and over and over....  again and again and again....

you see....  all the women in my life have done....  is hurt and decieve and torment me....

OR....

did someone bring me here....  has she been working in the background....  helping me all along....  if she has....  eye would NOT know....

OR....  

have EYE been giving MYSELF clues....  from the future....  and....  has not ONE single woman helped me in this battle....

this is NEVER going to go our way....  IF....  eye am going to have to continually GUESS what is on your mind....  you want credit....  it is time for you to take some risks....  it is time for you to come out of the darkness....  you WANT credit....  tell me WHAT you have done for me....  tell the WORLD what you have done for me....  because....  IF....  you have done anything....  eye would NOT know....

eye would fall on a grenade for you....  but....  you would not do the same....  eye have risked my life for you....  and....  you just sit up there....  flying around above me....  you are safe....  up high....  where NOTHING can touch you....